Where should I start?

Luckily, today is my day off, so I am taking my time to make hasty decisions.

I am taking out the trash, and all this feels like an old conversation from years ago.

My sight falls to the mirror. I watch the reflection moving, and the little voice in my head whispers, "When did you get fat?"

A closer look- I am trying to please myself with a softly whispered: “You are alright—you are not out of shape!”

"BUT alright;" never felt like something to strive for.

I want it all, not simple nor easy; I need a good portion of extraordinary, remarkable and outstanding in my life.

That's what's worth living for!

Simply alright isn’t enough.

I want it all!

Photography by Vlad Hilitanu

I am not working out to fit that cute little dress! I know how to buy another size. I am working out to free my mind, eat what I feel like, and be able to punch that Idiot who stole my bike and run fast enough to get away with it.

However, sitting many hours in front of a canvas may not have had the most excellent side effect. I am still working out quite frequently, but it doesn't keep my mind fresh anymore.

Usually, I run on the treadmill to free my mind, then a short but spicy 6 minutes of blanks. To finish, I end with weights, mobility training, or a set of 100 situps. Somehow, it doesn't work anymore. My mind runs and doesn't stop jumping. So what are we gonna do now?    

What I am working out for?

To free my mind, happily eat sweets and simply feel amazing.

Years ago, I stepped onto my scale, and the not-so-lucky number "overweight" showed up. "I have enough," rushed through my head, and the only elegant conclusion I could think of was to throw that piece of s**t in the trash.

I was so annoyed with the scale and myself that I needed movement. So I walked around the corner into the city, down the shopping lane, leaving the opera behind, and all the way back next to the river.

Back home, I felt good. I went online and ordered the Zumba starter package.

From this day on, I have been paying attention to taking frequent walks, and I do not take the elevator when stairs are in sight. Walking 5x a week for 1 hour started my fitness journey, and I kept doing it as it is the most straightforward exercise I can think of.

Doing Zumba in front of the TV was a fun way to replace some of the walks- I lost 15 kg by having fun and slightly adjusting my diet.

So what are we gonna do now?

Well, you guessed it, right?

We are taking a walk. :)